04 September 2007

Ian's So Smart

OK, I know he's my son... so I really always think he's smart but really this was pretty good.

Sunday afternoon, Keith left to bring his son home which is about a three hour ride round trip. So that gave Ian and I time to spend that was just the two of us. We went outside and played football for a bit. Then we came inside to play cards for a while before his father came to pick him up.

While we were playing Uno, Ian paused for a minute and said Mommy I have to tell you something. I said sure buddy what is it. He said I know what that ring is for, pointing to my engagement ring. I asked him what he thought it meant. He told me it meant that I was going to marry Mr Keith. I asked him what he thought about that and he said it's very cool, he makes you happy and it means I get to be a big brother.

Then we talked about the wedding and I asked him if he would walk me down the aisle. He said but that's Opa's job... so I told him that Opa was doing the ceremony so he would need to be up front already and I'd really like it if he would walk with me... Ian said yes, that would be awesome! Then he started doing his little happy dance and gave me a huge hug.

It was the best conversation I think I've ever had with Ian.

01 September 2007

Big News

I'm engaged!!! Keith proposed on Tuesday by a lake near our work! I knew this was coming because we'd discussed it and he even let me help pick the ring since my heart was set on something a little different. Our birthday is the same day and it is also the day we will be married next year, so I wanted a three stone ring with a diamond and our birthstone (alexandrite) - him and me and us forever. We had to have the ring made and I absolutely love it. The alexandrite changes color from bright teal in the sunlight to the gorgeous red-purple in candlelight (as seen in the picture below).I'm so excited because my dad will be performing the ceremony back home in NJ. He was so happy for me, he called back 20 minutes after we called so Keith could ask his permission and I could tell him what I wanted for the ceremony, to tell me he'd thought of the perfect lake. My dad rarely picks up the phone so that was a huge deal.It's unbelievable how happy I am - I'm loving life!

31 August 2007

Senior Moments

This is from the Blog Challenge at ScrapShare...

1. Who was your best friend? Probably my sister and brother. The three of us hung out together a lot my senior year.
2. Did you play any sports? Not at the school, but for the city I played soccer.
3. What kind of car did you drive? 1985 and a half Ford Escort Wagon
4. It’s Friday night. Where were you? Probably volleyball night at church or the bowling alley with brother and sister...
5. Were you a party animal? Nope not that year...
6. Were you considered a flirt? Not at all.
7. Were you in the band, orchestra or choir? Choir.
8. Were you a nerd? Yes and because it was a small school my advance classes were college level that had been recorded and I had to watch.
9. Were you ever suspended or expelled? Again... Nope not that year.
10. Can you sing the fight song? Small school... no theme song.
11. Who was your favorite teacher? The teacher from the AP Physics videos.
12. What was your school mascot? Small school... no school mascot.
13. Did you go to the Prom? Small school... class of 4... no prom.
14. If you could go back, would you? Not even if it would save my life.
15. What do you remember most about graduation? I had to give the speech... it was really more of a thank you/good-bye to the school staff... they'd been great for my only year there.
16. Where were you on Senior Skip Day? Small school... no senior skip day.
17. Did you have a job your senior year? Yes, life guard and water safety instructor and I worked at a local video store.
18. Where did you go most often for lunch? The church kitchen, we weren't allowed off the church property during the school day.
19. Have you gained weight since then? Um yes.... I'm about twice the weight I was then, but I was way under weight then... so that's not really a bad thing.
20. What did you do after high school? Went to college for two years and then joined the Air Force.

03 May 2007

44 Things... A Shortened List

Today one of my best friends sent my boyfriend and I a list of 44 things in life that make you happy. He replied the following to both of us...

1. Falling in love.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail or e-mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
14. A good conversation.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
26. Your first kiss.
29. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Road trips with friends.
33. Swinging on swings.
37. Holding hands with someone you care about.
42. Knowing that somebody misses you.
43. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
44. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Three guesses on who I'm thinking of...

I didn't need the three guesses ;-)


Hey All,
Life has been extremely busy of late.
But I have some important news to share... I have a boyfriend! He treats me so well and love me just as I am. We'd been friends for a while and secretly liked each other not that there was anything that could be done while we were married.
I can't tell you much about him now except that he's a really good guy, extremely nice an very handsome. There will be more soon, I promise.
Pamela Lynn

27 February 2007

The House is Sold


The house is sold... we will have our money through the lawyers office tomorrow. I won't go into all the gory details of the day... let's just say there were a few kinks in getting everything taken care of.

The next big step will be getting the separation agreement finally signed, which should be tomorrow.

Then I get to splurge on myself. I'm buying myself a new truck. I'm getting a Honda Ridgeline... I can't wait to go get it... and by the way, that will probably be tomorrow as well.

I'm off to celebrate with a few friends, after today, I need Happy Hour.
Pamela Lynn

16 February 2007

Ups and Downs

The last couple weeks has been a lot of ups and downs...
Most of the ups were stuff I can't really talk about just yet... so more to come on that in the future.
The downs...
  • The house had something that needed to be fixed prior to the up coming closing, fortunately it only cost about a hundred dollars. I suppose it could have been worse.
  • I had to do the final tax filing with Jeffrey... the couple of hours spent with him to get that done was not fun. Fortunately, we got money back from both federal and state... Unfortunately he doesn't trust me enough to not come at him for money so... he wrote me a check for the amount and then I wrote him a check for the same amount to cover my half of the joint bills.
  • Work has been crazy busy, so I've been burning the candle at both ends. Some days the distraction of actually having to be at work has been welcome because it keeps me busy... other days it's really tough to concentrate.
  • Ian has not been wanting to spend time with me... complains that he will miss the house, which I can understand... complains that he misses his father, which just kind of irritates me because it seems that he wants his father more than me and that hurts... complains that he doesn't like sleeping at my new house, which I try asking what is wrong I will try to fix it and he just doesn't know. He's seven and I can understand this is tough, really I do but I just wish he would want to see me too.

Guess that's about all for now... 11 days and counting until the house closes and we can finally sign the separation agreement.

Pamela Lynn

22 January 2007

Lazy Weekend

This past weekend I didn't do much of anything... maybe two loads of laundry (which really is all there was) and paid the bills.
I had Ian Friday night, he had a sleepover with one of my friend's sons from my work. They had a blast and played nicely. They even slept in a bit (9am) on Saturday morning.
There is stuff I need to do at the house, I just didn't feel like it... I kind of needed the break, it's been a whirlwind of a couple months and I think last week it was all catching up to me.
So I'll get to the stuff I need to do (like hanging curtains and pictures or working on my scrapbooking which I haven't touched in 7 months). But for now, I was kind of just happy for the break.
Pamela Lynn

18 January 2007

A Signed Contract

Today at lunchtime we went to the realtor's and signed off on a counter offer to the bid on the house.

Then at 5 I got the call that they had accepted what we modified and signed off on it. Yay!!! I'm so happy, I can't even begin to describe it.

They want to move in on the 28th of February. Between now and then it will be busy... the house has to be inspected and appraised... then the sellers have to get all the title work in order and we have to hire a lawyer to review the closing paperwork. It's going to be a fun month... note that "fun" is sarcastic.

Pamela Lynn

17 January 2007

Yay - An Offer On the House

Finally an offer on the house... thank goodness.

Jeffrey was actually not too happy, I think he would rather stay in the house... but I'm not going to help him pay the mortgage forever and he can't afford it on his own.

We have to meet with our realtor tomorrow morning to sign paperwork to accept the offer. It is pending the sale of the buyers current home and they are looking to move in at the end of February.

Keeping my fingers crossed that all will work out.
Pamela Lynn

16 January 2007

A Long 7 Months Away

Well, I know it's been a long time since I've posted and lots has happened... more so in the last couple months but a lot along the way.

The biggest thing that has happened is that I've left my husband Jeffrey. For a very long time now I've been unhappy and not many people knew it because I tried as best I could to hide it. He was very controlling whether he knew it or not. He also made fun of my weight, even though he just said it was because he loved me. I never thought I could leave... I thought I had to stay, I felt stuck.

Then I switched jobs last June and the people there made me realize how strong a person I was. Then I started paying attention to how much I did at the house. Then I thought for a little while that I needed to stay for Ian's sake. But I realized I could be a much better mother if I was happy. So I made the decision that there was no turning back and I was leaving.

I moved out on the 15th of December. I've found myself a nice two bedroom townhouse. We share custody of Ian. The only thing holding the separation back is the sale of the house, which I pray will be soon.

I'll write more about everything as time goes by but for now I just needed to jot down some thoughts... figured it had been long enough that I'd been away.
Pamela Lynn